mid years resolution

I feel like if there should be one rule in the realm of mortals that should never be broken it is this:

don't call people fat while they are eating.


I mean, my mother always has the best intentions but I feel like I am already overly self aware about my weight and I don't need her to go and make me feel worse about myself.

Honestly, I don't even consider myself fat. I know that I am thinner than a lot of people who are under that category, but being a girl growing up in 21st century Miami. Being normal sized doesn't cut it.

Yeah, I have a donk. And I always do my best to conceal it. I guess that's not really working out.

Ugh, I wish I can just tell her to stfu. But no, I have to have god damn principles and never talk back to my own mother. She means well, but she has no idea how much she hurts me. Maybe I should start throwing up or just starve myself all together. Yeah, that sounds about right.

From now on I will declare that I eat only 2 meals a day one snack and go to the gym at least 3 or 4 times a week.

I'll give myself to the end of June to lose 10 pounds. Let's see if I can do it...

If I do, I'll tell my mom to shut the HELL up hahaha

what poetic justice that would be.